RIP

You guys... this has been a rough week.

I just lost my loving, sweet, gentle, caring Grandma, Cathy.

She was the sweetest lady. She didn't sugar coat things though and she said it like she saw it no matter if it was politically correct or not (most likely wasn't).

When we (all my cousins and I) were little we would all take turns laying in Grandmas lap. She had the softest skin and we used her bosoms as pillows. She made the best biscuits and gravy this side of the Mississippi. She wasn't from the south but she kind of had a southern accent. She had a rough life though but despite that she was still so thankful what she did have. She was a godly woman so I know that she is in Heaven now meeting God, smiling because she isn't in pain, and I know that she is going to be looking down on me and the rest of the family.

The last time I went and visited her was 2 weeks ago. She hadn't been feeling well and was taking a nap when i arrived. My cousin was there so I hung out with her for a good hour. I didn't want to wake my grandma up so I was going to just come back the next weekend (last weekend) and visit. My cousin urged me to wake her and told me she would love it. So I did. And I'm so glad that I did. I got to give her a big kiss and hug and tell her I love her. I never visited this past weekend... I try not to live with regrets... but I wish I could have had one last chat with her...

But I'm happy that I got to be by her side at the hospital last night and today. I held her hand and got to tell her how much I loved her. I said a prayer for her and if you know me, then you know that I don't really pray. I did it for her.

Catherine Elizabeth Carmen

11-21-1932-----7/8/2011

I'm so glad that you were my grandma. Rest in Peace.

Help a sister out!

I'm really looking forward to May 22nd and 23rd.

WHY you ask?

I'm participating in the annual Relay For Life walk.

It's such an amazing event.

I have decided to walk in my Grandma's honor. She passed away earlier this year from thyroid cancer. She was an awesome person. She did so much, gave so much, and hardly asked for anything in return. She was an amazing lady.

I know that the American Cancer Society puts these events on annually in several locations. You should really check into it and see if there is one near you and your town. The Luminaria is something to see! They line the whole walk way with white bags with names of people fighting cancer or who passed away from cancer. They put candles in them and light them at night. It's beautiful. It actually makes me cry. (i'm sensitive, lol)

If you would like to donate to me and my team i would love you forever. You can make the donation in memory of anyone you want. Just remember it's for an awesome cause!

Happy Thursday and Tax Day!

Dear Grandma

Dear Grandma,

Thank you. Thank you for the wonderful years that you were here to teach me and show me things like where I come from and who we are as a family. You are a special person. I'm not the only one who thinks this nor is it just our family, it's everyone you have came in contact with over your 67 years. You are beautiful, outgoing, strong, and very smart... not only this but you have the humor of a 25 year old male which makes you all the better.

Can you do me a favor while you are in Heaven? Can you please watch over me? Protect me from the things that will do me no good and help point me in the direction that will ensure that I can become half the woman that you were? You were good. You put up with a lot. Grandpa is not an easy person to understand but he loves you and you the same. You are the glue that keeps him together and he will need you to watch over him. My dad will need some guidance from above too. Please show him there are other ways. Show him that he needs to invest his time in good things like you did. Not only were you the Vice President of our community bank but you gave your time to being on the Board of the Hospital and on the Board of the Hospice, plus more. Please keep an eye on Brittney too. She needs you too. It may be a lot to ask but I think our whole family needs you to be their angel. Do you think you can do this for us?

You gave a good fight Grandma. Stronger then most. You were faced with pretty bad circumstances. You are tired, I understand. Please rest your eyes now. We will miss you.
I love you forever and always.

Love,
Your first granddaughter, Ashley

Barbara Lynn Kosher
4/27/1942-1/15/2010