quote of the day.

"Change is the essence of life; be willing to surrender who you are for what you could become."-unknown.


I just stumbled across this quote. I feel like it's speaking volumes to me right now.

I have recently watched the new show called The Conversation. It's really good. The woman are open and honest. It's refreshing to hear celebrities talk so openly about life.

The move.

Last weekend we moved from the best apartment ever to the country.

It was a stressful and tiring weekend thanks to the rain!

But I'm thankful to my mom who helped me scrub down my house which means I will probably get most of my deposit back (and will definitely have to take her to dinner with).

Now it's time to set up the new house and listen to the crickets. Seriously though, it's so quiet out there! Haha

here we are again

This weekend went by way too fast like usual. I had a really great one though. My sister who moved down to So Cal a year ago came up to visit and brought her new boyfriend. It was a quick trip for them but it was great to hang out with them. :)

We went out to the bars on Friday night when they got into town.

On Saturday, I took Erica and Chris out to Breakfast at my favorite spot in GV/NC: South Pine Cafe. If ever in the area I really suggest you go there.

Chris is from Southern California and hasn't really spent any time in Northern California. He kept making fun of us and giving us a hard time for the small town we are from. It was all just a front though because I know he really loved it up here and I secretly think he would move up here. We ended up going into a local wine tasting room in downtown Grass Valley to sample a few... you know, the normal Northern California thing to do. =) It was quite good.

We also went to the Empire Mine and just walked around. It was a beautiful day. It was a little on the hot side for this time of year but it was nice. They had a wedding to go at 3:30 so we part ways. And i took a wonderful nap.... sigh. I love naps.

On Sunday I had a fabulous day with my mommy! We went down to Roseville and did lots of shopping. We also got pedicures and did lunch. It was perfect. I really enjoy hanging out with my mom.

I hope you all had an AWESOME weekend as well! Enjoy the week ahead!

Selfish

I'm having a selfish moment right now.

I was looking forward to seeing this when it came to town with original cast members...

But instead it looks like I will be doing this...

For my Grandma's funeral service.

I know that you can't predict life and you can't choose when someone leaves this world. And that there are disappointments around every corner. But I do try and look at the bright side of most things.

It's hard to look at the bright side when someone you love dies though and on top of that miss something that you were desperately looking forward to.

God...I'm so selfish.

Such is life.

Dear Grandma

Dear Grandma,

Thank you. Thank you for the wonderful years that you were here to teach me and show me things like where I come from and who we are as a family. You are a special person. I'm not the only one who thinks this nor is it just our family, it's everyone you have came in contact with over your 67 years. You are beautiful, outgoing, strong, and very smart... not only this but you have the humor of a 25 year old male which makes you all the better.

Can you do me a favor while you are in Heaven? Can you please watch over me? Protect me from the things that will do me no good and help point me in the direction that will ensure that I can become half the woman that you were? You were good. You put up with a lot. Grandpa is not an easy person to understand but he loves you and you the same. You are the glue that keeps him together and he will need you to watch over him. My dad will need some guidance from above too. Please show him there are other ways. Show him that he needs to invest his time in good things like you did. Not only were you the Vice President of our community bank but you gave your time to being on the Board of the Hospital and on the Board of the Hospice, plus more. Please keep an eye on Brittney too. She needs you too. It may be a lot to ask but I think our whole family needs you to be their angel. Do you think you can do this for us?

You gave a good fight Grandma. Stronger then most. You were faced with pretty bad circumstances. You are tired, I understand. Please rest your eyes now. We will miss you.
I love you forever and always.

Love,
Your first granddaughter, Ashley

Barbara Lynn Kosher
4/27/1942-1/15/2010

What do we call it?

I was just recently asked if I thought it was "the beginning of a new decade or the end of one?"

I liked the question but I couldn't decide on my answer.

The end: The 00's were good. I was 13 when the clock struck midnight in 1999 turning into 2000. What an awesome age for the start of a new decade! It was my Coming of Age (cue music decade. It's when a lot of important things happen. First kisses, first boyfriends, first heartbreaks, drivers licenses, parties, becoming an adult, turning 21, graduations of all kinds (middle school, high school and college!), moving out of my parents, and so many more awesome firsts.

The Beginning: I have a feeling the 10's (how do we go about saying that?) will be just as awesome though. I'm thinking a new level of firsts are going to happen in this decade...Marriage, babies, turning 30 (EWWW), careers, travel, love, loss, and enlightenment. The decade of my adulthood. Crazy.

What do you think, the beginning or the end of a decade?

To be apart of it..

Daydreaming about New York again. I think I day dream about it more this time of year. I want to be there, I want to be apart of it. Just like Frank Sinatra. Is it weird that I want to live there and experience that lifestyle? I have never been there yet for as long as I can remember I have dreamed of living there. Walking the beautiful urban streets, watching the people pass by, jogging through central park, and looking over the hudson to see that famous skyline. This is the one thing in my life that has been constant and for someone as indecisive as me.. This is huge. Can you hear it? It's New York calling my name! Be there soon. Xoxo