live and let live.

Going through my drafts. I opened this one up that I wrote almost a year ago in December. I have no memory of writing it, what it's about, or even who. But I liked it. I'm posting it now for others to read. Thanks for indulging me in my random blog updates. =) 


I'm going to tell a story. If not for your pleasure then for my memory. 

So I was pmsing...

Getting mad at someone that didn't necessarily do anything wrong but in my eyes they were just being annoying. I was being super stubborn about the situation.  

Anthony was around for the whole exchange.

He called me on my shit. 

I got mad. 

But then he came back to me and said... 

"you know i think one of your best qualities is that you live and let live.." 

He went on to say that he admires this in me and it makes him try to do this as well and not be judgemental. I can honestly say that he made my attitude change right away. 

Wow. 

He thinks this of me. We have been together for 5 years and he has never said those words to me. It was a really awesome feeling to hear the person that you love say kind words to you about you. 

I just want to remember this. That someone thinks this of me. So when I start being judgy about something and I can reflect and know that someone looks up to me and that I should change my attitude.

I love Anthony for reminding me to act more like myself. 

Also,  wouldn't that be a cool tattoo? Live and Let Live. I like it. 

to be brave.

I have been thinking about my goals for 2012 a lot lately. I'm not big on the new year resolution but there is definitely something to starting new and fresh...and making some changes in ones life. With that said, I figured out something that I really want to change in myself.....

 I want to stop being afraid!

I'm afraid of so many things...

I want to live my life and not be so afraid to fail...afraid to speak up...afraid to go after the things I want.

I'm 25 freaking years old...It's time!

I really like my life. It's comfortable. In all aspects.... I have a good job, a wonderful boyfriend, I'm able to do fun things....I'm very content.

I don't want to be content. I want to discover myself and the things I'm good at and I feel the thing holding me back from this self adventure is that I'm afraid. It's kind of a strange feeling.

I'm sure I'm not alone. A big part of my fear is that I'm shy. Always have been. I'm an introvert and I like to observe others but it's time to break out! =) I found this article while browsing the web...some good tips.

So there it is. My main goal for 2012 is to be less afraid, more outgoing, less shy, and to discover my passions in this little life of mine. I'm going to be BRAVE (my definition of that anyway).

Also I want to:

-travel more ( will get into more details later)

-save money

-learn my camera more and take more pictures

-be nicer to those i'm closest to

-drink more water

autumn wear.

Outfit post number 2 I believe.. ??

This past week the weather was the perfect kind of fall. So I thought I would take a few snaps of my idea of the perfect fall outfit.

Jeans: Free People (on sale for $45 originally $100). Shirt: Ross. Scarf: H&M. Watch: Charming Charlies. Shoes: DSW. Purse: Target (on sale for $4!)

What's your go to outfit for fall? I'm a jeans, t-shirt, scarf, and boots kind of gal.

25!

Since it's my Birthday... my 25th birthday...*feeling old..*

I thought i would do this fun little thing that I saw over here on this blog.

I introduce to you the A to Zs of me!

A. Age: 25.. today!
B. Bed size: Full
C. Chore that you hate: What is all of them... but I dislike cleaning the bath tub the most.
D. Dogs: My parents have two pugs. But i don't have any. I don't want that responsibility right now.
E. Essential start to your day: Shower. Quite time. Oatmeal and coffee
F. Favorite color: I love all kinds of greens
G. Gold or Silver: Most of the time I would say silver..but I'm really attracted to a lot of gold jewelry lately.
H. Height: 5'8 1/2"-5’9"
I. Instruments you play: I played the trumpet and french horn from 4th grade all the way up until freshmen year. I probably couldn't pick it up now.
J. Job title: Paper pusher. lol I work in a medical billing office. Not the job that i want to do the rest of my life.
K. Kids: None but someday I would like 2 little ones.
L. Live: Northern California. Grass Valley. 3 hours east of SF...1 hour West of Lake Tahoe.
M. Mother’s name: Patricia. When she was younger a lot of people called her Tric.
N. Nicknames: Ash, cash, AK47, babe
O. Overnight hospital stays: I haven't had any. *knocks on wood*
P. Pet peeves: too many to list... seriously.
Q. Quote from a movie: "A gun rack...a gun rack. I don't even own A gun, let alone many guns that would necessitate an entire rack. What am I gonna do...with a gun rack?" -Waynes World.. =) hehe
R. Right or left handed: Righty
S. Siblings: 1 real sister Brittney, 2 Step Sisters Erica and Julie, and 1 Step Brother Darkin.
U. Underwear: Don't leave home without it!
V. Vegetable you hate: I haven't met a vegetable I didn't like.
W. What makes you run late: I'm going to be serious when I say this...Other people. I'm a very punctual person. I'm always waiting around for others.
X. X-Rays you’ve had: I haven't had any.
Y. Yummy food that you make: I really like my spicy corn chowder and my turkey chili.
Z. Zoo animal: I like the whales, monkeys, and elephants.

have yourself..

a Merry little Christmas

from me

to you.

Eat, drink, and be merry.

Laugh, Love, and be Jolly!!!!!!!

I'm shameless

<<***I broke out in Garth Brooks when I wrote the title of this post!***>>

The awesome, talented, foodie Molly, featured me on her blog today! I wrote a Shameless November list for her series. Go check it out.. NOW!

A little tad bit about Molly> I often daydream about living in NYC and hanging out with her. She seems like a really fun chica! We share a love of food, horchata, and being silly.

Happy Hump Day! Celebrate November by being Shameless!

imperfection

You know those girls that can go to the gym, work out, and not even drip a sweat? The ones that can run and run then leave the gym and continue on with the rest of their day? Ya... I'm not one of them. When I work out, I'm like a man. I sweat and turn bright red. My hair is ruined and my makeup is gone. It's a bit annoying. I just returned from a little run/jog this evening and I'm dripping. If I had to go anywhere tonight I would have to shower and reapply everything. I feel like it's a good thing to sweat a lot though. It's like releasing all the bad toxins in your body. It's a natural coolant.

In that case, I wouldn't trade my sweaty back and my bright red face for the prior option. I need to learn to love my body for what it is... mine.

oh Dear...

Dear Autumn,
I dream about your cooler days. The fresh air. And the chilly nights. This 90+ weather is just too much. Let's take it down a notch. Si?

Dear NYC,
I miss you. Can we meet again soon?

Dear Marshalls Pasties,
I'm craving one ever since I walked into the place on Saturday. I think I'm going to come get a pasty tonight for dinner.

Dear Anthony,
I hope you feel better but I will beat you up if you get me sick. =)

Dear San Francisco,
I'm looking forward to my weekend visit in a few weeks. I hope it's sunny when I arrive. If not, I will forgive you since I know you can't help it.

Dear 49ers,
Will you please start playing like you were in preseason? I want to see a Win! Especially when I'm there watching you play against the Eagles.

Dear Friday,
You can come now.

you might want to

Oh hey, if you want to, check out my other blog.

It's going to be a photography blog based on my town, Grass Valley/Nevada City, CA.

We will see what happens with it. I just want to have fun.

mygrassvalley.blogspot.com

the big day

Birthday Buddies =)

My birthday was awesome. It was exactly how I wanted it to go. My co workers took me to an awesome lunch at one of my favorite restaurants. We also had frozen yogurt and bought lotto tickets. Then I got to leave an hour early. =)

After work I headed over to my friends house because her husband and I have the same birthday so we were having a joint birthday bbq.

All the friends I care most about were there. We ate, drank, played beer pong, talked, and LAUGHED. It was great!

We both took bites out of the cake. It was actually pretty funny. I haven't done that since I was turning one ;) haha!

The weekend continued to be great. Anthony and I went to an Italian Festival. Wish I would have had my camera to get some yummy food shots. sigh..

Sunday, Anthony and I relaxed, ate yummy sandwiches, sat at Starbucks with our laptops, saw Going the Distance with Drew Barrymore, and then had another birthday get together at my moms house. I love that my mom still takes the time to celebrate my birthday with a cake and everything. I love her.

Well here's to 24 years down and hopefully a lot more great ones ahead.

24

It's my Birthday today!

It's gonna be a good day! I'm gonna have my cake and eat it too! :)

Looking forward to tonight and this weekend. What's in store:

-Birthday BBQ!

-Possibly a bike ride

-Italian Festival

-going to a movie

-Relaxing!

Things you might not have known...

A little list of fun and interesting facts and tad bits about me and my life!

♥In 2007 I took pictures of everything I ate. Breakfast, Lunch, Snacks, Dinner, Starbucks, Jamba Juice, everything. It was a lot of fun. I tried to do it again in 2009 but I failed about half way through. Let's just say I have a lot of pictures of food on my computer. I still take pictures of the pretty foods or when I'm on vacation. :)

♥In high school my friends and I started the first all girl paintball team in Northern California, we were the Bunker Babes. I'm sure you have never heard of us, unless you were in the paintball scene. We were all over the place. We were famous. Articles in newspapers, magazines, and online and appearances in paintball productions filmed by Derder. Those were the golden years....sigh.

♥My dream job would be to work for The Food Network. Doing anything. Living in NYC.

♥ When I was little I wanted to be an Archaeologist. I think I watched Indian Jones too much.

♥I was on TV. There was once this show called Switched and it was on ABC family. My friend auditioned to be on the show and she made it. She went to Texas and the beauty queen came to Grass Valley and stayed at my house. We had a film crew follow us around for the weekend. She had to do all the things that my friend Leslie would normally do. Let's just say Reality TV isn't all it's cracked up to be... For Example we had to wait for the crew to get set up to make our entrance to places, they gave us stuff to talk about, and they edit the shit out of the footage! What a good experience though!

♥My parents were divorced when I was 6 years old. I can't imagine my life any different then it is now. I have 2 step parents, 2 step sisters, and 1 step brother plus a ton more cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents, etc. Even though the holidays can be a real pain in the ass I wouldn't change it.

♥My favorite movies when I was very young were Edward Scissor Hands, Speed, Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom and Coming to America. I was a weird kid....still am....

♥My favorite kind of music is 70's and 80's Classic Rock. Give me some hair bands and I will be happy. I do like all music though. I really don't discriminate when it comes to a good beat.

♥ I Played the trumpet and french horn in elementary and middle school. Our marching band was awesome. We marched in Disneyland! Also, we were the only Middle School to receive and invite to play at Governor Gray Davis's Inauguration (1999). All the other schools (I believe 5 others?) were all high school bands. Bob Saget, Coolio, Kenny G, and a few others were there as well. HAHA!

♥ One of the best things I have ever done was go on a study abroad trip to New Zealand. It changed my life. My advice to anyone is to travel. No better learning tool.

I think thats about all I got for now.. Sorry for boring the crap out of you.

It's good.

Today I'm happy.

I got a nice haircut. It's my normal haircut but I'm really liking it right now.

I'm wearing a new purple shirt that was only $5.

It's wonderfully beautiful outside.

I had iced chai tea latte.

I'm still smiling from learning how to process and develop my first roll of black and white film.

I'm looking forward to this weekend. I love hump day!
(A Wedding, Harvest fair, Art tours and maybe visiting with family. Looking good!)

And I'm looking forward to cooking dinner tonight.. even though I don't know what yet it will be. I just enjoy cooking more this time of the year.

It's good to be happy. Even with the most simplest things in life. It's what makes it worth living.

About me.

I'm uber sensitive. 

I'm very emotional.

I feel strongly. 

I have high anxiety. 

But I do know that I'm smart. And that I'm beautiful. And that each freckle on my face was perfectly placed. And that my emotions are worth something. That I have a great things to say. That I'm strong: mind, body, and soul. That I can and will do something good with my life. 

And when I smile too big you can't even see my eyes.